24 January 2006

Of Shouts and Noises...

It had been a sad awakening..another monday had come and i had survived through my dire temptation to quit....it was tuesday....and God had to get me through this day...sometimes i found tuesdays more frustrating than mondays...neither at the beginning, nor at the end, stuck in eternity, it was a day as confused as i was...

Morning washings done, I slowly descended the mount to get lost in the crowd; a sound hit my ear deep hard...It was my watchman..in strong argument with the municipal corp workers..they'd decided to bless our community with a concreted road, and feigned God...My guard dint like it obviously...but the abuses that followed..were a torture to the ears..There was a heated discussions, with references to one's mother and sister and all kins possible, every nanosecond..Not one seemed to stop and all the world but me seemed to be enjoying the early morning show of one's vocabulary.

I mentally shut my ears and walked over to the bus stop...was it me or was the area noisier than usual today..? Bus arrived, swarming with school kids...and a fresh load of ear ache for the likes of me...the sound they generated...a buzz of the bees..or worse..the irritating gnawing drone of the mosquito by your ear, that wakes ya up..rather throws ya out from a much wanted sleep..God seriously, why me...?

Life was testing my ability to mentally turn deaf...and today i was being very bad at it...Half through my journey to work, a sudden shout emerged from the dusty backyard of the bus...and a return fired from somewhere closer..Oh no..not another irritated passenger, practising his list of abuses on the conductor..! But yes it had to be...The strange language, seemed stranger to my ears, with these men shouting hard at each other..A shower of expletives i believe..and i somehow felt drenched in it...What was happening..?

I had second thoughts of returning home..with such a beginning, nothing great could happen to my day anyway..!

Down and away from the never ceasing fire of shouts, i ran for cover to an auto...Swearing at myself for ever living to see a tuesday, I disclosed my destination and rested myself for the first time in the whole morning...Peace..!

And i was thrown out to reality with a jerk...Not another repeat please...! The driver of the car and my dear auto driver seemed to be enjoying themseleves, doing this...at the mid of the traffic junction...with all forms of traffic surrounding them from all directions, they were busy in their throw of rage at each other..Each claimed that the other had defaulted and they themselves were The God of traffic rules incarnate....Help me someone...Nothing more embarrassing than your vehicle getting caught in such a plight and you being the center of all this..Passerbys seemed to stop, get the matter of the situation in, stare into the auto at me, like i was the sole reason for all this happening, give a dirty stare and walk away..

Please let me die now...

I was totally lost in my own thoughts, searching for whom exactly i had woken up seeing, and was it from the left or the right side of the bed that had resulted in such a day. I woke up to a driver staring at me with a look that pushed me out of the auto at my office. Paid up...

And ran into my office like my tail was on fire..It was true to some extent...coz there were all the voices still screamin in my head...swearing abuses at god knows who...Into the lobby..Hit the lift...Settled at the cosy corner...and ran out into the 5th floor....and...Peacee..!!

What if the silent humm of the machine sent weird pricks at my ear...?What if the hard and hasty taps on the keyboard echoed to the end of the long hall..?What if the buzz of the AC and the occasional roar of the coffee vendor left me puking for a change...this was Bliss..!

For life was not one of Shouts and noices...